12/12/09
Dear Rory,
Yes, I know, it's been a long time. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you still, which I am sure you know, but recently I haven’t taken much time to talk to you directly. Part of that has been intentional and part of that has not.
I have been hearing the trains at home a lot more than normal lately. Is that coincidental considering the trees have dropped their leaves? Probably, but I still entertain the idea that you have something to do with that.
Why haven’t I been talking to you? Most of all I think it’s because I don’t miss you anymore, at least not in the conventional sense. Selfishly I still miss you dearly but the last two years has given me a lot of time to rationalize the emotional struggles I have in regards to you.
While I still know that I am never going to be OK with your choice, with your suicide, I am not saddened thinking about the fact that you are no longer here with us physically.
I’ve spend a lot of time trying to understand what you dealt with at the core of your being. The pain and hurt you felt on a daily basis (mentally and emotionally) I wouldn’t wish on anyone, especially not on you.
You are in a better place, I know that. My faith is as strong as ever and I am at ease knowing where you are instead.
Boat Drinks,
Bri
hi, friends.
i've decided to change things up a bit and i won't be blogging here any longer.
my new blog is http://moxiefarm.blogspot.com/ if you'd care to visits.
cheers!
Last night was a great game. It wasn't a well played game but for anyone who doesn't think baseball is capable of being exciting, that game could be used as example A to disprove them.
That being said, as much as I love the Twins and were pulling for them to win last night it was the Tigers, who are the more complete team, that would have had a better shot at beating the Yankees in a short series. I do think that both Pettite and Burnett are beatable though so if the Twins could somehow steal one tonight from C.C. they'd have a pretty decent chance to take this series.
I hope I am wrong, but here are my annual MLB playoff predictions:
Award Predictions: AL MVP – Joe Mauer and it won’t be close. He had it pretty easily either way but last night’s win cemented it. NL MVP – Albert Pujols will win easily too. There were some great seasons by NL first basemen but he was definitely the cream of the crop.
AL Cy Young – Zack Greinke but I am not sure why no one cares that the Cy comes from a losing team when it’s such a big deal for the MVP too. Then again, I don’t believe in pitchers winning MVPs so that is probably the difference. Greinke was the best pitcher in the AL and deserves the award based on the logic that the voters use.
NL Cy Young – Chris Carpenter had a bigger impact on his squad than anyone else in the NL from a pitching perspective and that’s why he’s going to win.
AL Rookie of the Year – Andrew Bailey
NL Rookie of the Year – Chris Coghlan
AL Manager of the Year – Mike Scioscia (Gardy will finish second)
NL Manager of the Year – Jim Tracy
i've been back in MN for about 5 days, but somehow it feels as if i never left. except, you know, my friends bought houses and their kids got bigger. but other than that, things are pretty much just as i left them.
i take some comfort in that.
because of the relocation, i'm back on the job hunt. i've got an interview set up with an assisted living facility on monday morning. could be a fun gig and i imagine the hours will work with my school schedule.
<shrug>
cross your fingers for me, eh?
i'm feeling the need to bake again - but my growing waistline is indicating that might not be the best idea. i'll just have to quell that urge for a couple of weeks . . . and then i'll whip up another batch of cupcakes for tiffany and sabrina's birthday party.
i finally got around to cleaning/oiling my sewing machine (thanks, mom!). this should have been done awhile ago, as my friend jennifer had placed an order - and the fabric had been sitting around (waiting to become a drawstring backpack) for over a week.
now that i've finished that project, i think i'm going to dive into a puzzle i've been meaning to work on for... oh... a few years.
actually i *did* finish this puzzle once - i even glued it together and was planning to frame it - but it ended up getting lost during one of my moves. sadness.
when i finish it this time, i'll be getting it up on the wall post haste.
earlier this week it felt like fall was in the air, but i see the forecast high for tomorrow is 91. indian summer? let's hope not. i'm ready for a little scarf action.
